MOM (To the person, no dictionary can explain) 

To look how your a bit grown walk would’ve been special for you.

But to see that very person fall and get hurt wouldn’t have been easy. 

To hear saying Mom from her would have been the best feeling ever. 

But hearing that voice rising at you wouldn’t have been so. 

Joy she got while eating your food would have always made you elated. 

But seeing that food ignored for Italian or Lebanese would have been painful

Listening her ‘I love you’ when you get her new clothes would have contented you

But seeing those clothes now called old fashioned wouldn’t have been bearable. 

That tight hug she gave when you brought her a cell phone would have bought tears. 

But now realising her cutting your calls wouldn’t have been acceptable.

Looking at her crying to sleep besides you would have made you the happiest person.

But today seeing her irritated by your going in her room wouldn’t have been easy. 
Her new face for you isn’t easy to accept. 

But one day her realisation that this face killed you from inside would be bearable for her.

To your misfortune this realisation has time to come. 

And too her misfortune when it will come, it will be too late! 


Address to her heart! 

While leaving, she left a postcard

Secretly at doormat of his heart

Years later, he found it

On replying he realised 

Address to her heart had changed. 

The mirror of present, reflected the past. 

Everything was same

Only their roles interchanged. 

Poem on Poetry

your birth is always on the most unusual time 
you’re born seven oceans far and travel round the world

with no passport and visa

you emerges from every single thing i see around 

from sun’s rising up to a body breaking down

you’re someone’s outcome of heartbreak 

and someone’s cure to heartache 

you behold gravity within cause

you give solitary a new life

you’re the beauty which some recite 

and that on replay thing in writers mind

you hold power within yourself 

which touches us, even without touching 
how do you carry heavy words and rhyme them easily 

how does your presence make recluse pass happily 

how do you uphold someone in their hard times

how do you sustain centuries after your mother dies
there are yet many ‘how do’ questions back in my mind 


your name gives me answers 

just like the last time 

It’s okay!

it’s okay not to be okay always.

it’s okay not to be strong always.

it’s okay not to hide your emotions sometimes.

it’s okay to be silent at times.

it’s okay not to always choose the difficult path.

it’s okay not to always give explanation when asked.

it’s okay not to forget the past sometimes.

it’s okay not to carry a fake smile like we do a lot of times.

its okay sometimes to walk alone.

its okay sometimes to keep things to ourselves.

it’s okay sometimes to cry to sleep.

its okay sometimes to realise forever is never out of dreams .

it’s okay not to always match up with the trends.

it’s okay skipping 7-star meal for pani puri at a local stall.

it’s okay sometimes arriving messily and not sassy.

it’s okay writing our feelings down on a paper rather than telling.


your eyes?

wear eyes lenses and perfect fake lashes

try to find love. you’ll get their attention, girl
your lips?

fake a smile. make a pout.

try to find love. you’ll get boys to like you, girl
your skin?

lighten your tone or darken it temporarily.

try to find love. you’ll get much attraction, girl
your body?

flaunt it and make it curvy.

try to find love. you’ll get lust, girl

be yourself and cherish your deed.

then try to find love. you’ll get the most of it, girl

The undeniable treasure

The call logs which only had his name, now seem to have everyone else’s but not his. From the late night conversation of five hours, now texts exchange for hardly five minutes. From those tight hugs to today, we merely see each other. Promises of never leaving each other, sounds as a bad joke today. Hands which were never alone, fingers which rest upon each other’s now has the most cruel cuts. The future we once planned, ground beneath my feet show no roots to it. Yes we were trapped, trapped by the most hurting yet beautiful thing; Love! It has been always stated that first love is sweet! But the wounds it gave were even more deeper! I tried, so did he. Once? Twice? Oh no, many times! And all the heartbreaks clearly indicated, we weren’t meant to be together. My love for him was genuine and that’s why it kinda hurts to accept the reality that today, we not together. We are not one. He is not mine and I am not his. 

Would it be okay if I say breakup means the couple were not in love? But does that also mean that only committed ones love one another? Absolutely not. Two people can feel for each other even if they aren’t together and at the very same a couple could feel nothing for each other even after years of commitment. 

Maybe our stars do not match and that’s why we had to apart. But the love we hold will definitely bring us back, tomorrow or a week later or decades later! I will wait. I will wait for him. I will wait for the fortune to turn up, just because these feeling are never fading. We are not one but spiritually we both live together.

My phone still blinks notifications and each time it does I know, it’s not him. Maybe because I never told him how much I feel for him. Or Maybe because he never tried to know this. Or maybe because I’m writing this in my notes and never sending him.